Picture yourself on a road. No idea what road you are on but it is definitely a road. This road consists of twists, turns, stops, traffic accidents, pot holes, road rage and many other things (that only scratches the surface of the road). All we know is that we are on a road and have no idea where it is going to take us. No one really tells you that on your trip there are so many miracles or beautiful sites to see. They always just mention what you should really watch out for along your journey. Realistically it keeps you kinda blinded. Never really able to enjoy the road trip for exactly what it is. An Adventure!
An adventure! Ha! Some would say 2020 took the word adventure to a new level. Yet, Here we are. The last day of 2020. If I was to tell you this was the best year of my life I would flat out be lying to you. 2020 was one of the hardest years of my life. One day I am sure I will write a tell all that will go into great detail of what i am talking about but not today. I would say that 2020 caused me to lose myself, but that also would be a lie. I had lost myself long before 2020 came along. It was not the hardest because I lost things like others. It was hard because I had to come to terms with myself. I had to come to terms with how I was choosing to create the world I was living in. My eyes were certainly opened to the fact that I was not loving myself and it had been a long time since I really had. Sometimes the hardest moments in our lives come when you are facing yourself in the mirror. I guess that it could be argued that through the chaos of 2020 finding myself was a blessing and therefore 2020 was a blessing in disguise.
Yes, 2020 was hard. For many 2020 was devastating. For me it has also been the year that has lead me to freedom. It has lead me to learn techniques and see myself in a new light. The light that has always been there and that I have always searched for through my sabotaging behaviors. Now to say that I still don’t get challenged and triggers would not be true. I definitely do. When you are on a road to self-discovery and living in the present all days will not be a piece of cake. Do I think that 2021 is going to be the best year of my life? IDK… What I do know is that 2020 gave me the tools, knowledge, motivation and awareness that I need to move forward with a positive and optimistic mindset.
Every New Years Eve I listen to people getting all their resolutions ready. Some people might decide to hit the gym. Others may decide to embark on a road to a new career. Yet some might just be hoping and praying that 2021 takes it a little easier on them. I on the other hand am throwing my hands up and continuing to take the big leap of faith. I am a true believer that everything I am experiencing and going through has a specific purpose. Even the things I would rather not deal with. Then again, I have never been a big resolution person. I have never been the person that starts things in the beginning of the year just because the year reset. I have always been the I will start something when I am ready to do it. As I type right now I can hear my spiritual team laughing at me not because it is funny. They are laughing because it is the absolute truth. I have always took the harder roads.
This year I am sticking to my guns. I will not make a resolution. I don’t have the want or desire to do it. One thing I have learned is that it is perfectly fine to not do things. Especially if you do not want to and they do not resonate with you. I do know what I am going to do. I am going into this new year with an open mind. I am choosing to embrace whatever 2021 throws at me knowing that I am fully capable of handling it with grace and ease. No resolutions for me!!! Not a one. I will however choose to continue to move forward with trusting my intuition. I will continue to leave behind the things that don’t serve my higher-self.
Maybe you, yes you reading this will find yourself in a very similar mindset. How about you? Are you making any resolutions? In reality I have no idea where I am going in 2021 but I know I am going somewhere.